Pain

Currently, having my favourite song on replay...

Thinking about what we could be if we didn't waste all these time 

doing all these stupid things, playing games and second-guessing one another.

Can I stop you from leaving? Can I stop you from going to where you wanted to go? Even if I told you to stay by my side? I doubt so. 

You want her, you need her. And I'll never be her. 

It's never easy to get over someone

Especially those that have always been there for you.

Half way around the global and all you can do is just talk about those feelings.

Hoping for the best.

What's the best for you?

Well, no one said moving on was easy right? 

Yet we always assume it will be.

Positivity kills? 

Why do we want to make everyone that cares and cared about you suffer 

in negativity, pain and tears? 

Sometimes, we catch ourselves slipping back into old memories 

and other times we are just fine on our own.

But you still try really hard to figure out what's right, 

what you are going to do.

Being a coward, hiding in the shadows secretly praying that you'll be fine.

Sometimes, we are in these constant fights with the brain and the heart,

trying to figure out what we really want. 

The brain: Walk away and find someone better

The heart: Just let go and fall in love again

Day, weeks and months have passed but you still can't decide,

even when we had one, we never had the courage to act upon it. 

Why? What's holding you back?

The fact that you didn't grab on to the chances given 

or the truth? 

Reflections.

Questions. 

Uncertainty. 

Never answered. 

Lost time can't rewind itself. 

Wishing that I could be 5 again, with a whole life ahead of me. 

Do not have to care about the world. 

" If you haven't lost anyone, it means you've yet to grow"

Maybe we all need to hurt once or twice to grow.

We lose to gain. 

Cause some lessons are taught through the pain. 

The pain that when we stare into the mirror, tears just roll down

and you are just left there begging yourself to hold it together

to be stronger tomorrow. 

And after all this, you realise...

You thought he was different

But hey, it isn't the first time you are wrong right?

Smile cause.